I would love to see you smile

=)

I was walking along the pavement near Sheares when I passed by this pond. There, was a young girl sitting beside the pond and just staring at her reflection. Curiously, I went up to her to strike a conversation. I ask her where she come from, is she staying in hall, etc. Then as we talked, we started talking about relationships. It was interesting cos she told me that she'd been in and out of love many times, though it's countable. She seemed to be growing tired of relationships. But then again, she saw her friends around her being loved by someone. She yearned to have that. I told her it's normal to feel that way cos humans are always contradicting. When you have an apple, you would want to have the pear in the hands of another. She agreed but went on to saying that there are so many apples and pears out there, how would she know which one to choose. I thought for a while. That is true, how do we know which one is rotten or juicy. I told her maybe she should try the apples and pears so that she'll know how do they taste like. But would that take a lifetime, she asked. I said, if that's the case, ask yourself what do you want to eat? Would you like to be an apple that is green, juicy but with a little tinge of sourness or a pear that is crunchy? If that fruit fufills your criteria, pick that fruit. Wouldnt' that mean you'll leave out plenty of other juicy and colourful fruits and just stick with that only fruit that you picked. I told her that maybe it doesnt pay to be greedy. By the time you are ready to pick the right fruit, other nicer fruits are in season. It is never ending. When are you ready to stop looking? Grasses are always greener on the other side. But while you are gazing, do not forget the patch of grass on your side, because that is what matters. You are now with that patch. What are you going to do about it. Life is all about choices and how you live with the choice you make. So make the choice that you will not regret. Because regret lives forever in your heart, till you die. Unless you are able to free the pain. Suddenly, the girl started crying. It's been a very long time since she let out her agony and frustration. I told her, it's ok. Cry as much as you want. Sometimes, crying makes us human all over again. We are blinded by so many things in the world, when we meet situations, we put a shield to protect ourselves. Sometimes, we just need to let out a cry, to tell the world, we are after all humans. She went on to tell me that there's this boy that she like but didnt dare to tell him because he is not staying in the next semester. If only she had more time with him. I ask her is she close to the boy. She shook her head. She hardly see him. But when she saw him, her heart always skip a beat. But then, he hardly notice her. When both of them talked, she always feel like happy. Even her friends commented that her face always light up when she's with him. But then sometimes, he'll treat her like a transparent paper. It seems like he's blowing hot and cold. I frowned as that does not seem like a good sign, even for a friend. 20 years of experience in this world, I dont think that is a friend at all. Why would a friend do this to do? Maybe he is in a bad mood, I suggested. She shook her head. She knew the reason. He has many girl-friends circling around him and he is not shy about it. Perhaps, to him, she is just another girl living in the same building. I probed a bit more, if you knew that he is such a flirt, why do you still torture yourself? You should stop thinking about it. Forget about him. She looked at me with her eyes filled with tear, it was like she was asking me for help. She couldnt get out of the hole. I told her, the semester is coming to an end, you probably won be able to see him again. You should free yourself from all the agony since the chance of you two being together is really slim. Drop the unnecessary burden and walk free from it. Maybe you'll live happier. Even though you two had some memorable times together, all that is left are memories. So take them with you and move on. Life is unfair. The unspoken rule says that only one fruit is allowed at one single time. You are still young, there are so many fruits out there. Choose wisely before you regret.

The young girl looked at me. This time, her tears have dried up. Though she wasnt crying, I could tell she was not convinced. I looked at my watch, it was time to go back for dinner, I bade her goodbye before she turned around the corner and disappeared. In time to come, I know that she will understand what I was saying. I took a deep breath before walking back to SHeares with my head held up high. It was time to face my own fears.

Today, just saw this certain A and certain B are 'married' and they have made a wholelife commitment. What's all this? Ok, they may be expressing their love to the wholewide world but marriage isnt supposed to be like this. It's not anyhow declaration on some internet website and say it so. If you love someone, just say those three words. What happen to marriage being the sacred ceremony to unite as one, till death do us part? Are you sure it's a LIFETIME commitment? Sure, all men would agree. All women would agree. And how many of them ever tell the truth? Don't say something now that would hurt both of you eventually. I think it's just bullSh*t to me. Don take marriage too lightly.

You don even mean what you say. Meaner. Go away. Wait, you are away. =(

L+O+V+E

Love is like a cup of tea

You decide what to put in your cup

You decide how much to put in your cup of tea

Sugar - for the taste of sweetness of joy

Lemon - for the tinge of excitement and pain

Milk - well, for calcium intake

Lol...

Picture taken from http://www.twiningsusa.com/TeaExperience/prepare-recipe.php

Study Blues. I need....

sigh, the study blues. How can I cure the study blues. To top it off, it's monday.

Monday blues + Study blues = %#*@#!!!*

I have four exams, and I'm studying for one now. Four more chapters and off to the next one. Sian, why am I always the slowest and worse off among my mates when it comes to studying. I'm not the worse when playing viwawa. Lolx. If that makes me feel better. Worse still, this... thing is on my mind!! Freak! Cannot la!! How am I suppose to study with that thing on my mind! Stop twirling in my head! Must debit credit in my head. Must... fight the... force!

Warehouse Sale @ Henderson Industrial Park
G Star Tough JeanSmith Fiorucci Callaway Anteprima

This is one sale that I actually bought clothes that are decent, after The Venue sale. Other sales like Mango 90% sale, Victoria Secrets, Nike are disappointing. Either the sizes are too big or the clothes are like many many many seasons ago. Couldnt sleep ytd night and went down comm hall to have breakfast. Ppl who know me will understand that if I come down for breakfast, that means no sleep. How is it possible for me to wake up for breakfast when it ends at 9am everyday. In the end, manage to catch two hours of slp b4 Dexter does his job of waking me up. His skinny arm shook me furiously, undetered by my du lan face. Good job, or else I would have missed such a great sale.

Actually, when I got there, I was kinda pai seh, cos Singaporeans are crazy about sales. I can imagine people squeezing, clothes tossed everywhere, women desparately finding a small area to try fitting. But, there was no crowd at all. I was surprised cos if there wasnt any crowd, that means that there's nothing to much to see. But wrong! G star clothes are pretty decent to see and there are sizes. That's the most important thing. Tough bags and Salad bags are also going at 60% less. That's like less than 100 bucks. Everything is less 60% and more. G Star jeans are like a hundred plus after discount. That's like so cheap for the brand itself. Let's see, I bought a huge Salad bag @ 50 plus and it's reversable and huge enough to put everything in. I'm planning to bring it to Japan. Plus, I bought G Star black skinny jeans. Tt's like just the one that I one. Wanted to comtemplate buying one at Far East, but why buy that when u can buy one that is of good quality. haha.

Also, bought the most expensive of the day, a G Star black jacket that looks like the character in The Matrix cos the length is a little above knee. Totall loved it, ex though. That means I have eat air from now on. But I assured myself that I have not been shopping for like since one month ago, so this trip is acceptable. lolx. Was thinking of buying more and sell on ebay but since we're going to Tokyo soon, there's no way we can concentrate on the transactions. Anyway, too bad Dexter didnt buy anything but I assured him that he'll definitely buy something when we headed to Club 21 sale. I was wrong. In the end, I was the ultimate spender. -.- Actually what I bought was two leather bag charms. And one is for Vivien cos I forgot to buy her 20th birthday present in Taiwan. -.- Well, I'm sure everyone would know who's getting the other bag charm. Hoho, it's gorgeous, plus it has a small mirror behind. Though it's a bit overpriced.... it's... GORGEOUS! =)

Today is definitely a fuitful trip downtown. Oh well, it's back to mugging. Just got home with a quarter of the stuff in my SH room. Boy, brought quite loads of stuff in sem 1. Sads, sem 2 is coming to an end. I'm going to Japan soon. Can't bear to leave, all my frens are here in Singapore. Seniors are leaving Blk A soon. Acers are gonna miss them, esp the bunch at Level 6 boys(men) and Level 5 girls. Shall miss the poker days, movie marathon, buaya week, block supper, OCH. Like I told Dexter, I wanna be a part of everyone's life. But it's impossible. But at least we've made some memories together. I ask, would it make a great difference if I come to SH instead of RH last year. I though for a few days to get the answer. But it doesn't matter anymore. I'm glad I've come to SH this year. All the fun things we did together, the late night conversations, the laughter, the water fights, the card games. I remembered the first day of orientation, I was already playing mahjong with the seniors! What a way to start hall life. lolx. But I'm glad I did. Im very fortunate to meet such great bunch of seniors and frens in Sheares, particularly Acers. Thanks to everyone: Dexter, Jie Ying, Bernice, Grace, Joyce, Yee Lian, Laureen, Ting Hui, Sharon, Xu Han, Big Joshua, Small Joshua, Shi Da, Xu Da, Yuan Bin, Marcus-es, Amanda, Yeow An, Wang Ling, Shiau Yinn, Sean, Ben, Ronald, Hao Jie, Su, Dom, Pei Joo, Bright, Don, Bona, Ying Ming, Kenny, Joey, Jason... OMG too many!! To all Acers: EAT MORE BANANAS! =D

no no no no no no no no no no

I have to stop thinking. No more A6! And I can do it.

hm... how shall I put it. Here's my take on single-hood among girlfriends with boyfriends, girlfriends with girlfriends, and all other combinations we can imagine: I think single-hood is something everyone should embrace. Once in a while, we should have a myself-time. Just do whatever u like - alone. Quit thinking that going to eat alone is a OMG! It's a time when you really sit down and enjoy the quietness. Read a book, drink a cup of coffee, gaze at guys/girls. But Im not saying that lives with a partner is bad, it's a burden, it's quarrels or movies and dinner and movies again. Im sure everyone would be bored of being together with the same person like... forever. But actually what I just said is bullshit what I really really wanna say is that, it's no use looking for love, u have to find love. You'll be looking for love forever, but if u are unwilling to find one, it's no use. If you're enjoying single-hood because you cant settle down, you wanna have plenty of boy-friends, then chances are u're just looking around and not finding the right man. Maybe it's time to consider when are you ready. Right, sw?

Question of the day: Who is the lady sitting beside the VJ tee-shirt girl?

(hint: All XMS ppl should recognise her)

If you can guess it, congrats! Im sure 4e4 students know her. Cannot believe that I actually bumped into Mrs Lim while I was waiting to go for express pedicure at HLM. Took a second glance when I passed by her. So pai seh. She forgot my name and I forgot hers as well. dotz. The only name she rembed was florence. sigh, not the teacher's pet aye. I was furiously throwing names at her and she couldnt remember anyone our batch except chinese dancers. I was like 'Peiqi? Sinli?' She frowned. 'Ker wei? Kok Hong? Joanna?..... JACINTHA? SIANG FEIH?' More frowns. Sigh, we're all not her pets. But the names sounded familiar but just tt no images of them in her mind. Oh man, seeing my secondary school teacher brought back so much memories. Still rembed she was the one who practically dragged my entire batch of girls into chinese dance. No tears can moved her decision. Sobs. Oh wells, tt was in the past. Talking to her felt like talking to a big sister. And the way she talks is still the same!

'what color u want to choose?'

'aiyah, auntie color can le'

'aiyoh, u where got auntie? anyway, does the school allow u to have red nails?'

'why cannot? this is human rights leh. human rights'

dotz

OMG, and she can really bitch. XMS ppl will know the way she talks. Anyway we talked abt Xinmin, new principal in XMS, NUS, 10cents internal buses, washing clothes, love issues, nail color, kids, etc. And she actually lived quite near me. tsk tsk, i shall see her more often at HLM then. All in all, it was an enjoyable conversation with her. =)

Me posing with my teacher, Mrs Lim!

Ju Shin Jung Authentic Korean Charcoal Restaurant

my dad was like 'look there's a table!' we went to the table directly, ignoring the queue of people that was waiting to be served. -.- Go father!

Look at the number of side dishes they gave us and the whole long tray of fresh vegetables. We were first given a starter which includes a bowl of onions and seaweed preserved in sweet vinegar. And the korean tea was a little diluted but refreshing. Dig in!

There are so many different variety of fresh vegetables to choose from. Usually we cook the meat then place the meat on the veggie, with a bit of BBQ sauce, wrap it and enjoy.

Look at the piece of beef. Didnt expect it to cost 59 bucks. But it's worth it, if we order two meat and above, the side dishes would be free!

The kim chi soup was delicious, nothing spicy but a bit too oily. I had to put two pieces of lettuce to suck up the oil and tt's not enough. I recommend the spring onion seafood pancake (also know in korean as pajun) That was really heavenly, sides are a bit crispy while the pancake was not too thick. I wouldnt say it's sweet but it was definitely tasty. I would say it's worth it for the price of $20 for a piece of korea. =)

parents getting all too serious. Mother thinks the hair looks terrible. But the main thing is i took all the pictures with my phone! hee. Oh, over here at the restaurant, they uses metal chopsticks and soup spoon. Not to mention that the staff are mostly chinese or korean. And the instructions to the fire starter kit is also in korean! talk about authentic huh.

Ju Shin Jung Charcoal BBQ (West)

27 West Coast Highway #01-18/19Yess Centre 1F Singapore 117867

Business hour (Open everyday except Monday Lunch) Lunch 12:00 ~ 2:30 (Last order at 2pm) Dinner 6:00 ~ 11:00 (Last order at 10pm)

Tel . 6464-0872

yes! i can go to japan!! after long awaited deliberation and procrastination, i've finally gotten the green light to go! But i still have to discuss the details with parents. finally, smth to look forward to after exams. should be pretty busy in between after exams and before taking off, it's onli like 4 days. But there's so much to plan and 3 projects are due next week plus a mid term. OMG, i still need to plan for school, accomodation, plane tickets, stuff tt i need to bridge that communication barrier. konichiwa!! hopefully i get to go. After the SEP saga, i onli wish to get out of singapore asap. Probably gonna miss the ppl in singapore for 2 months, but then, it's not the same anymore.